Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Expectation Always Hurts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Expectation Always Hurts… Isn’t it? Life starts with expectation. Our parents and teachers expect us to do well in studies and we expect some good things to happen. If it happens we tend to enjoy and if it is not we will be disappointed. I just want to know why we are expecting the things to happen. Is it our fault or the normal thing happening in this?

In our young age all the guys will be sharing the news with us without any hesitation. But as you older security comes in the eyes of the fellows who tend to be an open book, Many won’t tend to tell even their important news like promotion and other stuffs. It will be real tests of character in bring yourselves to cheerful mien when you know you are being betrayed. The people with whom you have spent countless number of hours are not reporting you even their important news in their life. What transpired this sudden change of attitude? Is it the Selfishness on their part or the insecurity they face seeing a competition?

The Real shame is that we are the persons whom they will be seeing when they are in need. The friend in need is a friend indeed. The Sharing of good news should bring happiness around the group. Nowadays the culture is like keeping it secret becomes a fashion. The insecurity that lingers in their minds translated into action. Why is this happening??

Expecting something from someone is the root cause for all this unhappiness. Why to expect someone whom you don’t know fully? I know we can find reasons and come with a rule guide that we should follow these steps for not getting disappointed. Life is not about following the rules and enjoy. It is about breaking the rules and getting your emotions visible to others. But to be frank the world s becoming so much unhealthy as insecurity resides in the minds of individuals. They tend to make the friends insecure and unhealthy cooperation between the people in a team. If you are letting out your good things to friends then how can you build a good relation? The insecurity prevailing in their mind will be like a crack on a glass. The Glass can’t be saved and hence the relation too.

The persons who are like open book are the water inside the cracked glass. Please try to come out before the glass is broken, So that they are not wasted. To be frank please get a person’s mentality before hand and expect from them. Then share your thoughts, rather than getting used to hurting. The closeness to acquaintances makes us to expect from them. So beware before being close to them.

For a Safe Life ahead, Please don’t expect anything from anyone at anytime. Try to live a life carefree and also expectation free to avoid any ill happenings in the future.

Expectation Always Hurts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

My Transition from CTS to Mindtree :) :) :)

July 1st, 2010

It’s not too easy to leave your native place and go outside. I felt the same when I left CTS. All my thoughts were lingering with the nice things I had with CTS. I had a feeling that I might have taken a wrong decision in my life. But as I have in my mind “Whatever Happens in life Happens for good” For the last one and half of CTS I was posted in MEPZ and I had been with a gang of 9 or 10. It was a pleasant time and I thought suddenly I am shutting the door on my own, I still remember my last day in CTS. I went to many branches and saw many friends. I was entirely not sure whether I have taken the right decision. On my last day I was unable to come out of my seat. I Stayed in office till 9.30PM and virtually cried when I came out of the MEPZ office. I don’t know whether that emotional bonding with CTS was good part on my side but surely I felt so. After coming to home too I opened webmail of mine and was checking the mails (In CTS the account will be locked only after considerable amount of time).

I am damn sure that many will be having the same emotional quotient as me. I was emotionally attached as I was having a lot of friends in CTS (More than 100). I am damn sure in the era of telecommunication I’m not going to miss many but as a friend and advisor I might miss many .... but I never showed my emotions outside. I was crying inside and in the front of others I was smiling. It was a smile from the face rather than the heart. July 1st was a turning point of my life. I needed to make my life turn to different direction. I made myself for a sterner test and first real test after my Campus interview I suppose. I know Mindtree will be different company, different set of people and I need to prove myself to all again. I needed to start from zero again. With lot of expectations I left July 1st, 2010….

July 5th, 2010

Mindtree had its expectations and I had been loaded with lot of pressure after such a long time in my life. It was a new company, new set of people. There were million questions arising in my mind. How will I prove myself? How will the people be? How is the culture? But I had 25 people to accompany me. To my real surprise I saw 7 of them from CTS, but I have not seen anyone before in CTS. As CTS has 11 odd branches in Chennai I was unable to meet many  I got friendship with some of the IMTS people and started to feel good. It was a good that I found the persons in my level. The astonishing thing to see was in Mindtree I found the things were transparent. I went into Data ware Housing and I found there are less members in the DW.

July – October, 2010

July Month went without much fuss. I came to terms with policies and other stuff in Mindtree. I felt a bit pressure less and smooth way. But I was learning much stuff in Business objects and I had a nice time with the colleagues. I was again started having persons who can speak to me at will and chat as much as they can. Also work was going on the other side.

The other important aspect which I liked in Mindtree was the working of TSA. They will be going to Old age home and Orphanage every second Saturday. I also accompanied them for all these months. The sense of fulfillment was there when I visit there. I liked the places and started visiting the places every month. Orphanage has about 30 children and I can remember a proverb saying “You can forget all your sorrows on seeing the smile of children”. How apt that is? Absolutely Children smile is priceless. Those children who are orphans will play and we can forget our pressure and have peace for some time. Old age home is more of a customary place but I was unhappy to see many people are staying there. All of them are not much well equipped and It made my mind stronger and speaking to them will make us feel proud of our parents. Also it made me strong that I might not do that mistake to my parents. We can see the happiness in the faces of old people at once we enter the place and it made me to take part in that kind of opportunities.


Next in line was my Project, My First project with Mindtree. Panasonic was my first project.We had a very small team and I was a bit hesitant at the beginning but my lead made as easy and I became a part soon of the project in a full swing. She cleared all my doubts and made me comfortable in the project. After a gap of about a week I came to my own and happy to be part of Mindtree. It was the happy time back to the good old days of CTS. In the mean while I also completed my MBA degree which is biggest thing as I worked and did it.

The project went smooth and I gained much more confidence in my ability and tried to utilize it to the fullest. It was nice to see enjoyable and nice people around which nullifies your work pressure. Even the PM or TL are easily accessible and transparency is the thing I liked more in Mindtree so far and I hope it is the same in the future too ....

So far I am having the good stars shining on me and want it to shine in the future as I can make myself better equipped and have good time as I had in CTS .... hoping for the best and trend shall continue ....

More to follow....God knows...........

Saturday, June 5, 2010

POST-PHEONIX



Post-Phoenix:

In July 2007 my friends wanted to form a new team and we name it as “PHOENIX”- Rising from the Ashes. I had to cut the terms with Nagar Friends since my friends formed a new team and I am integral part of it. We played our first tournament in July 2007. We had some real easy opponent in our first outing, as per the name. But it was comedy of errors which followed. We needed just 49 of 8 over’s and we got to horrible start much to our team's fury... We were 11 for 6 at one point. Then I had a good partnership with sati and we got forward to 36/7 and then there chaos and we won in the last ball with brilliant running by Divakar saved us from blushes.

Next match was Semifinals and we had it against Nagar Friends, My previous team. They scored 93 of 12 over’s. We were bit sad about our bowling performance but it was all overturned by a whirlwind batting performance from Arvind. It was a great innings from him which really motivated us and we beat them by 6 wickets. In our first attempt in a tournament we went to finals and we played Champions in finals. They scored just 52 in 10 over’s but to our bad luck we lost by 5 runs in the finals. We may call them as we choked in the final but I was not able to finish it off which I should’ve done.

After Post Phoenix there was change in me. I was not a real attacking batsman as I was earlier.....I played as wall and tried to keep my wicket intact so that people around me will hit the boundaries. So it was a different kind of environment for me. Still I played some shots but not attacking as I did earlier with the previous team. But I liked it more as it made my cricketing life fulfilled as I was able to my technical side perfect. We were happy that we reached new heights in our first tournament itself and the burden of expectation was upon us from the start itself .....




Lets see the other important moments of my life with PHOENIX in the forthcoming posts !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cricket Life

Pre-Phoenix:

My Life and cricket is so much inter related. Cricket still has inherent space in my itinerary. I started playing cricket very early in my life. From my school days I used to play cricket with the people in my locality. My neighbor Kannan Anna is my idol. I have seen him play some very astounding innings with both tennis and cricket ball. He made me play cricket with him. I was not playing a big deal of high profile cricket till I reached my 10th.

Till my 10th – We used to play the cricket in very quiet manner. Especially we will be playing beside Sivaraman home. He is my best buddy. I will be in his home more than in my home at my schooling days. He is really brilliant in studies also in playing. We play real quiet but aggressive cricket. I can even remember Srihari, Velmurugan, Satish kumar and others accompany us in the ground. Our profiling was a bit low and we also didn’t want any high profile.

When I was in my 10th leave, I had substituted for some in Kannan Anna team. In the quarters of flood light match they lost so many players because of various reasons and I was handed my first cap. I was told to bowl the 2nd over. I was really astonished to see bowl was coming at my side as I was very young at that time. I bowled pretty well. My bowling figures were 3-1-10-2. I got 2 wickets which I really relish still now. But I can’t say it about the match as we lost by about 20 runs chasing 91. I was the No.11 in the team and I faced just 2 balls without scoring. Also I didn’t trouble the scorers as I lost my partner next over. We lost but it was first match of mine.

Then once again I was back to normal flow and we will play in Audco ground where we played some of the older guys and beat them. The thing of winning gave me an opportunity to play in the Nagar Friends team and I took it as much as possible. I blossomed as a cricketer in their team. We have had many number of matches in which I had played really well and my bowling and batting both got well augured. I became a full time cricketer in that team. I am really thankful to that team mates for really making me think like a good player. They showed me my true potential and I am very thankful to Vicky, Dharma, Anand and Munees. I felt my own when I played with them and try to give my best all the time when I play for them.

Seldom i will be playing with my friends in weekends and we also went to a tournament. My team name was Anchor. It was a 6 wicket tournament. We played to see our profile. In the first match we beat Park Friends by 10 runs. Then came the match which showed our potential. We beat Keelakaranai team by 5 wickets, inside 2 over’s we finished the match after we had bowled them out for 17.

Next match is my career turning point match. We needed 56 off 6 over’s. We fielded brilliantly and shut them down to 55. We were 21 for 0 in 3.5 over’s, when my teammate susil ran himself out by backing up too far. I came inside without knowing what is gonna happen in the next 10 balls. Next over was bowled by arvind, my classmate. I hit 31 runs in an over and the equation was turned to 4 in an over from 35 of 2 over’s  I got out in the final over but we coasted home without hiccups. Till date I can say it was my best innings and brought out the batsmen ship in me. We eventually lost to Nagar Friends in the finals by 30 runs but our heads was held high and I was adjudged man of the tournament which was the starting of good things to come  our team was Ravi, Shiva, Sati, vel, Ragha and susil.

Then in that year lights I played for Nagar friends and it showed my potential to everyone. I was asked to open the innings and I took it as I had many big hitters in my team and so safeguard them I went for opening. But I started playing well and we scored 88 in 10 over’s and I scored 45 out of it. A first real important innings of my lifetime and I was very much happy I played well. Also it was my transformation from No.11 to No.1 in 2.5 years that surprised many. After the lights knock I got some more responsibilities and I coped with it with ease and my cricketing life was going at ease with the Nagar Friends team. Till July 2007 my cricketing life was with them and all I will do is to go and play and come. I will not be chatting too much as I do to my fellow friends. It doesn’t mean that I under performed at any time. They also know I played with my whole heart in their team.


In the coming Posts i will be sharing my Experiences POST-PHOENIX!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Cricket as a Religion

India – 2nd in population behind china. We have large amount of human resources which mostly utilized by MNC’s. Cricket- It’s not our National game but it has huge following than Hockey. Cricket gained the popularity when Kapil’s devils won the Prudential Cup, 1983. They beat run away leaders West Indies in finals and Kapil phaji held the cup in his hands. That moment marked the cricket autonomy in India.

Hockey lost its glory as it began to decline as the cricket rose up. India won the 1980 Olympic gold medal and it was last recognized win for our national game. Cricket on the other rose from strength to strength from 1983.

In 1985, India won the world championship of cricket and was crowned as undisputed champs. From Gavaskars to Tendukars, Tendukars to Dhonis cricket was over leaping all boundaries in the Indian sub continent. India Has been the traditional powerhouse of cricket and BCCI, Controller for cricket is the richest club of all the lot. Every new born in an Indian family dreams to become a cricketer. That is the real storm that has been done by cricket in our society.

Nowadays cricket is being followed as a religion. We find the boards like “Cricket is a religion, Sachin is God”. Indian Players are worshipped like god if they win, But in the other hand if they lose they are impatient and burning their effigies. Why this sentimental things happening? Are these players who played well deserved to gods and not played well are deserved to be devils? Why is this happening in our country?

India came out in the first round itself in World cup 2007 (50 over). Then people became unrest. Effigies were burnt, Houses were rattled by stones. Then in the same year we won the T20 world cup and cricketers were hailed as heroes. Why this discrimination? The bunch of players was the same. The difference is the form they shown. The exuberance of the youth was visible. Now 3 years down the line they are facing the same fiasco as they had in 2007.

The Indian people expect the best out of their players all the time which can’t happen at all times. But almost 100 crores people expectation will be acting upon the players mind too. All the effigy incident and stone throwing incident will be running at the minds. I accept they played badly and are circumspect against the short pitch bowling but it’s because of the pitches in India. Here they won’t get a ball cutting across the throat but in overseas you will get that reception which currently they are unable to cope with.

Let’s remember, Ponting one of the finest Batsmen averages only 12 in India. So give some time for this young parade to work on their defects. Then we can come to conclusion. They haven’t done anything substantial in the world tournaments for the past 3-5 years. But let us give some time to prove. I can remember Sachin Tendukar took 79 ODI’s to record his 1st Century. But now, Can anyone say it’s wrong to give time to the little master. Just show the patience to them. Even diamond takes time to transform from carbon. We can make wine in a single day. So wait and watch. One day we can see the transformation in these fringe players.

But I need to quote some ill happenings in Indian Cricket. The loss in T20 World cup was due to:

1. Why the hell they took Ravindra Jadeja to World cup? I am not saying he is a bad cricketer. But we have better cricketers than him in our ranks. He is very young and has to learn many things.

2. Why not Irfan Pathan and Robin Uthappa? Why Dhoni didn’t go for this two people. Only he can answer this. Both were in some good form and none were selected which came as rude shock to all. Both can win the matches on their own. They both were in good form and really I was astonished not to see their names in final squad. I know Irfan was bit down but Uthappa has been in sublime form in the IPL3.

3. Why they took bowling in 2 Matches in Barbados? India had only 2 seamers and after winning the toss, Dhoni opted to field which was the major blunder they did. Dhoni had some answers for it and none were really proven him right. He is a gifted captain but he needs to accept the truth that he had made a blunder.

4. When Hussey can bat at 33 like this, why can’t Dravid or any other good bet when sehwag was not there? India went for youngsters who were good but we need to blend youth with experience in order to get the results in our favour. This went against India as they were unable to play the short pitch stuff which bombarded against them.

5. Sehwag’s Absence made a huge difference as other teams will be happy that the Nawab of Najafgarh was not there to haunt them.

6. Indian Youngsters inability to Short Pitch stuff. Surely they are trying to overcome but so far it hasn’t come off yet

So my sincere thought to our countrymates are:
1. Please watch Cricket as a game, Not as a religion
2. Love the game, don’t be a predictor or some hardliner
3. Wait for the fruit to reap. Youngsters will take time and wait for them to grow up and deliver the goods.
4. Please don’t burn effigies. Don’t break the houses of cricketers.
5. Take the things easy as it comes. Be professional rather than sentimental.

So wait for the 2011 World cup in sub continent and hope for an Indian Upsurge and let us bring back the glory of 1983!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, May 10, 2010

Sweet Memories During Training in Cognizant

My Last day at my college was on May 17th, 2007. I wrote my last exam and came out with lot of expectations. I had a sense of proud that I was the first person in my family to complete B.E and got selected in CTS in campus interview. So I thought my life was a settled one as I see it now. I was waiting for CTS call for almost 6 months. First I was given DOJ (Date of joining) as December 24th and on November 14th got call to join on November 16th. Here the journey of stepping into the CTS begins:):)

First day of CTS, I was called for induction program to Tidel Park. I was accompanied by Nirmall, My college mate (Department mate too). We don’t know much about the route. He told me that it will take just 5 minutes of walk from Madhya Kailash to Tidel Park. Believing his words we walked. Much to our agony Sun was just belting down as early as 8 itself. We walked for almost 25 minutes and then only I came to know he said its 5 minutes when we come in bike L on first day, we were given some lectures from all the top level managers. We as usual back benchers were sitting in the last row and trying to avoid the sleep as hard as possible.

We got a gang of friends who were from other colleges. Also we saw our sister concern college students sitting in the 2nd last row (SRM Eswari college, we are from SRM ValliammaiJJ). We had enjoyed for 2 days with some team building exercises and some various interpersonal skills programs.Then they parted us into groups and allotted training in some specialized courses. My team was a gr8 one. It was like Bharatha Vilas film in Tamil. I was put into AJ083 and we were combine with AJ084.The team size was 30. My batch break up was:

Andhra: 12
Tamilnadu: 11
Delhi: 1
Maharashtra: 5
Kerala: 1

This was an awesome collection as we had all the languages and people. I thought it would be difficult to group with this batch as it was a group and state based. But for my surprise all were brilliant and they gelled like anything. All were like pearls as I must say. Helping others out in all the things. All were so close that we enjoyed like a family friends in our training period. We used to roam a lot, Enjoy like anything in pantry.

We were put up in Siruseri SIPCOT INDUSTRIAL ESTATE for training. Although the roads were at bad shape the enjoyment we had inside the campus was awesome. It will be like an island and we enjoyed every moment in our training time. We roamed so many places when we were in training. Some of the moments I am going to Share with you through this blog:





Besant Nagar:

Besant Nagar is the first place where we had gone as a gang. Like always none was punctual except one or two poor fellows who reached on time and waited for others. In friendship and love, Waiting causes a lot of good things.. It helps us to think of others more time and bonds us better. So everyone came by 5.30(Our timing was 4-4.30 maxJJ). We had wonderful time in beach for almost 1 hour. We played with tennis ball and after tiring a lot. We sat and played Antakshari. We got mixed songs as we had Telugu, Malayalam, Tamil, Hindi people surrounding us J Then we went to a dhaba and had our dinner. Then we had our way back to our own backyard JJthe size been 16 out of 30.

Mahabalipuram:

Mahabalipuram is a historic place in Tamilnadu. We planned our next visit to historic place. We started in morning from my place and reached there by afternoon. Our first visit was to a hotel and we had our lunch over there. It was a combination of north Indian and south Indian dishes. We enjoyed a lot and we were pulling each other’s leg down in whatever opportunity we got J then we went inside, we saw the monumental Temple which was beside sea shore. It was the only one temple remaining out of 7 in the Mamalla period. It was a awesome temple with both Shiva and Vishnu in the same temple. Then after taking some photo shoot we travelled towards the sea. The sea was a bit rough, which didn’t hinder our playing JJ Also we had traversed through the rocky area which was beside the seashore and had some photo shoot there. It was an awesome place. The size was 20 this time. The enjoyment too increased with the amount of people increased.

OSO in Sathyam and Spencers:

Our Third visit was to Om Shanti Om film in Sathyam. To say the fact it was one of the worst film and most hyped film I saw in my lifetime. But I got chance to bully some of the SRK fans in my batch. Then it was like a family function and we thoroughly enjoyed in Sathyam even it was not a good film. Also some of my friends don’t know Hindi too.

After finishing OSO, we went to spencers and had our lunch over there. We also did some window shopping. But Ravi, Adari bought a vanheusen shirt for him to save us from blushes J we were 14 and I think it was the only one thing bought on that day J he he. We did take 8-10 photos in the Spencers and back to our home.

Empowerment:

Empowerment is the program in which we need to show case our talent in all the parts like elocution, Drama, Leadership Skills and a topic has to be completed in 1.30 hours. We got two topics. They were: Value and Ethics and Time management. We enjoyed all the sessions in the Empowerment. 2 of our batch mates got into project because of their brilliant Performance (Swapna and Deepti). So it was one of the learning which yielded lots of good results for the people in batch. We had some nerve wracking comedies from Manoj, Sam and other people. I too made a mess of some things like making the conclusion part too long. But at the end of the day everything is a learning experience which we had undergone in 3 months of training.

Punna da Dhaba:

After finished all our tests, our last date of our training was on February 27th and so we got February 28th as leave. We were asked to come on March 1st for our project allocation. We came and played on February 28th and had lunch at Punna da Dhaba. Almost 20 people came and we had some nice time before we were allocated into the project.




This is the Sweet memories which we had in our Training life. Also We did MFRP(My first Real Project) which was one of the good things we did in training. I hope all will be still lingering upon the sweet memories of our training life

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Project Experience in Cognizant

At the end of Training, We didn’t have any idea where we are gonna be put. All were looking at our faces when we were called for the Austin room, TCO. Till that time we didn’t have any pressure and we were having heart in our mouth when they started to read the names to be allotted to a specific project.

In our Training Time, I, Parthiban and Nirmall will be roaming as a gang. We used to go everywhere as a gang. I and Parthi were put into AT&T. But Nirmall was separated and he was put into France telecom. Only 9 persons out of 30 were selected into AT&T. But to our surprise only we had the personal interview with the managers. Others didn’t have that kind of interviews. We almost had interviews till the end of the evening on March 1st. In AT&T selected persons were:

1.Ravishankar R
2.Parthiban P(Parthi)
3.Ramya (Rams, Mummy)
4.Bhanu Siva Prasad ( Intelligent of the lot )
5.Suresh (Kido)
6.Shivani ( Married now in Australia )

Also 3 got selected in C-beyond which was in our bay itself

1.Manoj (Chotu)
2.Prasad (Paddy)
3.Poornima (Poori)

I was put into Infra Team in my project which didn’t have so many coding to be done along with Bhanu. We had a very good team in which I and Junes were Tamilians. In the beginning I and Bhanu were assigned some coding to be developed as a value add. Because of bhanu’s hard work and dedication we were able to complete it. So he was changed to Dev team whereas I remained in Infra team as I liked admin kind of work a lot  Also I had some valuable members as my seniors who helped me a lot. They were helping me a lot and made me into a perfect team member at that juncture of my life. My team members were Rama, Vikas, Sumith, Vinod, Junes and the captain of all Suriya. The team was led well by Ram.

We had gone for Team lunch within and whole team as well. We went to bassera, Malgudi days and Asiana too. Also we will have fun at telecom once in a fortnight which will be rocked by our APM E.Saravanan, Jey and Subbu  We also went to MGM resort and went to Dasavatharam film in Mayajaal. The biggest of them was, we went to Cricket match in IPL 1. CSK vs. KKR and we thoroughly enjoyed every moment. We enjoyed as a family and had a great time in MAC stadium.

All the enjoyment was compounded with work too. I had to come in weekends and work too. But all was fun and the team was terrific. At the month September I was asked to code in a particular tool. I got ready for my assignment. I was helped immensely by K. Saravanan, one of the seniors in my project. But unfortunately I was not able to complete the tool although I tried my best for completing the tool. I was very disappointed but had a great learning experience and courage to do things in a correct manner.

After the first debacle I was mentally strong. I was assigned for creating Birthday mailer (Automated) to all telecom associates. I did that with the help of my seniors but it gave me a lot of satisfaction. But the biggest jolt came on December 12th when I was released from the project. I was very disappointed as I had done all things right in my project but as I was not billable I was to moved to bench

Before I got released Manoj, Parthi got released and went to a different project. When I thought I was a bit secure I got released. Hmmm that’s life  all things happen in life for good only  I was trying so hard for another project. It was recession time and we need to in project in order to be secure.

At that time Tharak (Testing Team AT&T) provided me an opportunity and referred to his friend’s project (BINGO T-Mobile). I went through one interview and I cleared that and got selected in that project. It was a proposal for a 3 year and we had a great team with many associates and I was youngest of the lot (not by appearance though) It was a nice experience for me as it was from scratch. We used to do all the documents and also Class diagrams and others will be done by us. I was given the burden of doing one module. I was so happy that they had belief in me and given me a huge job.

As the belief in you increases, you tend to reciprocate it with your best effort. I worked so hard and we had sent some prototype to client which was also accepted. We had a wonderful 3 months of time. It was tiresome effort that we put in but reap of the effort was so good. I had learnt a lot in that project. It had some outstanding people like Meera, Kavitha, Chithra, Sundar, Niranjan, CD Saravanan, etc. All these guys helped me in the life to get my confidence to a fullest level. I must thank them as I became a complete person in that project because of the faith they had in me. But to our bad time the project was put on hold and the account was closed

Then my Third Project, Health Net one of the best projects I have worked on. The team mates were awesome and very helpful. I learnt a lot in this project. From Java my life took a deep turn into Business objects and learnt some new stuff. First 3 month I had the torrid time as I worked for 15 hrs a day daily. We worked and prepared the prototype and also delivered it to customer. When I came first to MEPZ I felt very lonely and I will be eating alone and going alone for breaks. So was feeling that I can get a friend. Then Jayashree came to MEPZ and I started with her teammates. Then Nirmall and Parthi came. So we had wonderful time back again in MEPZ after Siruseri

Then I got closer with my teammates and all people went with their teammates to lunch. I too started to go with mine. It was a very good team. All were helpful and very nice. But we used to work long hours in office. But with a team like this you won’t feel staying late in company. I learnt many things from my teammates.

We also went to Kodaikanal for an outing. We had a nice time. Enjoyed the tour fully, Sang, danced all the way  also we went to our colleague’s marriage in Salem. We had very good time. I wish more good things should happen to me in future

Thanks for all the Persons who made my life beautiful in this Company So far.I might have missed some people. Don’t be disheartened, it’s my memory loss.. But will not forget you all in my life

Thursday, April 29, 2010

The Unused Opportunity…!!!!!!!!!!

The Twinkie winky eyes of the new born were sparkling. She was waving her teeny weeny limbs so happily. As Rahul held her she touched his face. That was one of those abstract moments when Rahul felt extremely happy and had no words to express. He left her back near her mother. Deepthi saw her baby with a feeling of pride and completeness in her face. It’s really a great feeling to be a Mother.
“Ok then … Take care … Am leaving now … Bye!” said Rahul and left.

Rahul and Deepthi were school mates; Classmates. Moreover neighbours. Rahul was a charming guy, bright student, pleasing by nature. And Deepthi was a soft girl with a well packed character. At the beginning they were just “Hi..Bye” friends. As they grew up they became very good friends. They played together, studied together, went to and came back from school together. They spent all times together. As every guy in the adolescent age, influenced by other friends and his own infatuations, Rahul developed a crush over her. But then, it was just a crush.

They studied together till 8th standard after which Deepthi’s father got transferred to some other city and they parted. Rahul felt lonely for few days. But then he was back to normalcy. He studied well and came out of school with flying colours. He got a meritorious seat in a prestigious Engineering college, which he did pretty well as always. Even before completing his graduation he got placed in a leading firm. His life went as clear as water with lots of enjoyment.

One fine day when he returned home from office a surprise awaited him. He saw a girl, a familiar face talking to his mother. And god that was Deepthi at his home! His heart was really jumping in joy. He saw her after 8 long years. Not much she has changed, except that she has grew up a little taller than before but not much. Her two plaits had changed to single one as her frocks had changed to salwars.

“Hey Deepthi !!! Is that you?? Can’t believe my eyes..How are you??? You have not changed much … Have you come back here again?? What are you doing now??? ..!!!!” Rahul asked them all at once. That was a mixture of questions and answered by himself.

“Hi!!! Allow me to talk yar. Am doing great!! Daddy got retired from his job. So we decided to come back and settle in our native. And Am working for a leading IT firm. Does that answer’s all your rapid fire questions??? “ Said Deepthi with a cute smile in her face. Rahul gave back a wide grin.

They spoke together. Shared all their memories. Enquired each other about old friends whom they lost track with. They spoke almost about every important thing that happened to them in those 8 years. Time was rolling at its fastest. What could be more exciting than meeting a childhood pal after years? That day when Rahul went to bed he had a feeling of travelling to the past on a time machine. It would be wonderful if life have a rewind option as in a video camera.

They both became more good friends than in the past. Good friends in school days meant sharing a chocolate, helping out in doing previous day’s home work, having same colour school bag, playing and having lunch together. But now as grownups they had lots to share with. They discussed about almost everything under the sun. Both of them were so caring and affectionate on each other. They stood by when either of them had a problem and were each other’s let out whenever depressed. A good friend is the one who walks in when whole of the world walks out; Bestest of all relations on earth. A simple joke or a happy moment with a coke they were together. They never knew loneliness.

One summer evening when Rahul was standing at his gate sipping coffee, he saw Deepthi coming. She appeared a bit brighter than usual. His face brightened up and he greeted her with a smile. She threw him back a familiar smile. But that day there was something special about it. As she stepped into his home she started smiling more than before.

“Hey anything special??? Guess you are so happy …!!!??”

She smiled back and said “ Yes Rahul … Guess what??? “. Still smiling.

“ Your MBA results came??? U cleared with distinction??? Or got any promotions in office??? “ asked Rahul, a series of questions like always.

“ No yar … Something different … “, she smiled again.
Rahul stood puzzled thinking of almost all possible reasons for Deepthi’s smile.

“From now on there is going to be someone in my life with whom my life is going to be complete. Yes Rahul, My parents have found a better half for me. Next week probably they would arrange for an engagement. Just now daddy told me. And it’s you to whom I came first to say this. I know you’ll feel more happier than me.” Said Deepthi shingly with in a mellifluous voice and her own silver smile.

That came as a thunderbolt to Rahul. He was left in a state of mixed emotions. Actually he was supposed to be doubly happy as Deepthi said to celebrate his best friend getting married. But something paused him. That moment he understood that it was not just friendship. His heart wanted to take that to the next level. But he didn’t show any of his emotions out. For the first time he smiled falsely to Deepthi. He congratulated her. Deepthi then started telling about her future ally. Rahul remained a silent listener to everything.

For the next couple of days Rahul was so disturbed. He knew that it was unfair to think his best friend as his life partner. It would be like shattering all Deepthi’s years of trust in a single stroke. He decided to grave all his thoughts forever

As planned Deepthi got engaged the next week. Deepthi introduced Rahul with a pride to her would be as her closest friend. In the next six months she got married. Rahul sensed a kinda loneliness for some days. He then dragged him out of that solitude. He was back to his usual life.

It may seem that he lost an opportunity to get a good friend as his life partner. But there was chance of him losing a very good friend of his for the cause of his love. May be she would have accepted his love. As a partner she would have been more caring and affectionate than now. But if not he would have not gained anything, rather lost a precious friend of him. It’s true that we don’t know what we are really missing until it arrives. And today he would have been living without a charming, caring, affectionate, and precious and really a good friend like Deepthi.

He understood that a friend being a friend would be much better than a friend being a life partner. Why to combine all beautiful relations together and compress life when they are available in plenty. What would have been his life without Deepthi as a friend? It would have been like a pen nib with a bend.

And Today when he lifted Deepthi’s baby he understood that his decision to Silence his thoughts was the bestest of all the decisions he took in his life.And that was not a Love failure, But An Unused Opportunity.

Whatever happens in life happens for good

Was my admission in my same school is good? Taking SRM Valliammai instead of Anna University or MIT was good? Getting selected in Cognizant was good?

If we start to think the good and bad in this world, then you are making a great blunder. The life is nothing but a play and we are all actors. We need to enjoy every moment and cherish the memories.

First, Got admitted to same school for my 11th. I know there will not be much exposure. I know it’s a same set of teachers I need to go through. At that age we don’t have the ability to check the good and bad. There was battle of words between me and my mom for me to take computer science as my main subject. But all for her fury I took biology. The biggest victory for my mom is that I got the lowest mark in biology otherwise I would have got school first.

If I have not joined the same school, I would have lost my friends mid way. It was wonderful 2 years I had ever had in my life. We enjoyed a lot with sense of breaching code of conduct which happens everywhere. Also I had a good set of friends in whom I can rely upon. Known persons made my life very happier than I was in my home. We always had a chat about India winning the world cup, who should be in our team and who shouldn’t be. It was nonstop talk without a round table conference in place  Also I had infatuation over my fellow classmate but in the right juncture I came to know that’s not very true.

We were very much amiable and tried everything out as a gang. I remember like we used not to tuck in our shirts and paying fine, Getting punished for not speaking English in school, Getting reprimanded for doing some ill things in chemistry lab. These all things were like Param vir chakra in our young days. Also we have the good name of playing cricket tournament in school for the first time in our school history  But the biggest astonishment was the mark I got in chemistry at the board exams.. I got 200/200 and I was surprised to see the marks as I used to say the HM to remove and change our chemistry mam.

Second, I got good marks in school and was sitting in the Anna University for my counseling. I tried 3 things Mining in Anna Univ, Printing Technology in Anna Univ and Mechanical in AC Tech. But to my bad time I lost Mining and Mechanical. So I was asked to put another one. I had put EEE in SRM Valliammai. Both Printing and EEE was confirmed. My father was sitting nearby but it was my option which they took as a word and I took EEE in SRM Valliammai. I had one apprehension of not taking Anna univ but still EEE is a good course rather than Printing.

Next in line was my college life. One of the memorable journey in my life so far. I had 50 other guys like me joining my course in my college. To my astonishment I had 4 people of my same school in my class. I had two friends whom I can’t forget as they were really very good. Badri and Praveen both are very good and they can do anything for their friends. I must admit I was benefitted from their help. Also I had Sabari who was my class topper and sati my schoolmate in my class with whom I was very close. Also 8 of my school mates were in my class.

So it was more of school atmosphere over there. We enjoyed our college life like anything. We also had Cold WAR with our staffs,but thanks to our HOD we were not much harassed. We went for South Indian and North Indian tour in our 3rd and 4th year. We visited Bangalore, Mysore, Ooty in 3rd Year and Agra, Delhi, Manali and Chandigarh in 4th. Also we did our project at the last minute with curse of my internal guide. But to our surprise we got the best project award.

Sad things happen in life in college. I had my share too. First my Orkut ID was hacked and some obscene scraps to all gals in my profile. I even bear the burden for that till now as my perippa not speaking to me and my sisters even doubt me now  it was a state of shock for me. I was unable to come out of it still now as it was not my fault but couldn’t prove that I am true

Then came a bigger jolt of my life. After this hacking incident died down a bit one of my friend proposed me. I haven’t seen her too. One day I mistakenly typed her number but she asked whether we can be friends? The wrong thing was I said ‘It’s ok we can be friends’  then she will message often but I was not replying her often. One day I wished her for her birthday and I she proposed me at once. I was not in a mood to love at that point as I was not settled and I said no. But some of my friends played prank on me like that gal. But I was shocked when I saw that she will commit suicide if I am not accepting, after a long struggle I was able to convince her. Not before I lied that I am in love with another person  but happy that saved her from blushes. These things made me mentally stronger and I am a complete person right now than I was facing that problems. Problems come to make you stronger. Isn’t it ???????

Third, Joining Cognizant. WIPRO was the first company to attend my campus for interview. I got through all the rounds and also was confident of clearing, but to my bad time I lost it. Even the person whom I gave courage got selected but not me it was a blessing in disguise I got CTS as my second one and I got selected in that. If I had got WIPRO I might have not cleared the exams which were meant to be sooooooooo tougher than in CTS. So it was a boon as I dint clear the WIPRO hurdle. Coming into Cognizant, the greatest transition in my life came.

I am used to be a Short tempered Ill speaking laggard in my school and college. I used to roam with all guys and we have a guy’s gang in nagar (My place). Even gals will fear to speak to us. But now the transition was I became very cool and composed. I am not letting my anger get the better of myself. All this credit of changing will go to Nirmall. A friend of mine (Coll mate too). He used to speak well to gals and guys. That transformed me into an individual who realizes that changing yourselves is better than changing others.

Also I should thank my best buddy Poornima here as she was the one who was with me in all my bad times. I am happy to say she is settled now and has a baby too.. I wish for her great future. She was instrumental in saying me to be good to all and don’t expect much from others.She used to tell everything in a correct manner that my mind understands.

Also my friend Satish Mukundan showed me how to live? He will be very silent even when other bully him. So I have got the real character from him. Nothing is going to happen if you are angry, Anger kills your brain. Don’t act when you are angry as it will end in danger.

Then my Schoolmate named Renuka (Will ask to call as Renu actually). I have not talked much to her in my school days. But she was also selected in cognizant and she taught me how to go about the life. Don’t try to spend thinking of others. First think of yourselves then all will be fine. That simple mantra was taught to me by her. For that I need to owe her a lot. Wish her a fine future ahead.

I need to thank Renu, Poornima and Satish for my change in my life.So this is my little story with my experience of what happened in Life.

“Whatever happens in life happens for good”
Isn’t it ?????????????????????????????????

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